Monday, April 13, 2009

Someone who will put up with the things loving me can bring


"Someone who will put up with the things
Loving me can bring
But still be there to see us through
Someone who would put up
With the strange and complicated thing
Cause I would do the same for her too
Someone who I can be real with
ain´t gotta be perfect
Because loving one another is all that matters
it´s not hard to explain
So believe me when I say
That I found all of that in you"

So... I thought that Musiq Soulchild's new song is the cutest song ever! My favorite line is "put up with the thing loving me will bring" :) i think in every relationship this is so true. So i decided to write about my weaknesses in relationships...
Don't expect me to look good everyday, every night, every morning because you'll be very dissappointed. I don't get all made up everyday but i guess that is when you know someone really likes you... when they've seen you at your very worst.
Don't expect me to want all of your time because i need my own, but i'll be glad to keep you company whenever you need me to
Don't expect me to be calling you 24 hours a day to check up on you because i won't.
Please go out with your boys so I can have sometime with my girls
Don't mind my random sayings and my dorky-ness
When i get mad please bare with me.
When i get frustrated during the day... just look at me and smile because i'll do the same for you.
Love me for me... which is a lot to handle
Bare with me, because I take time to open up to people... especially if it is emotional or personal
I'm sorry if sometimes I get quiet, it doesn't mean that i'm mad or sad most of the time... its just comfortable silence... i'm enjoying time with you...
Please don't get mad if i suprise you :) i tend to do it a lot...
I'm sorry if I am hesitant to let you love me... its harder than you think...

So there might be a lot more but these are just a few that i can think up at the moment :D

Saturday, March 28, 2009

glad youre okay


You're back! ...and i have never been so happy to see someone, to see that youre okay. You are the bravest person i know, risking your life to go to Iraq... and I'm glad youre back
I told my mom that i saw you and her first response was -- "You should get back with him!" -- (LOL) hahaha- good one mom.
If we kept going, and we were good at being us we would have been together for almost two years now... seeing you again reminded me why we were us ... you're my dorky best friend who became something more... I learned a lot from us, i learned a lot from you, and a lot from me... When i saw you it was back to what i knew... you and the stinkies and me it was like old times, that comfort zone that i miss so much. (hahaha) leave it to my girls to make us always sit RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER... i missed you... and i am so proud of you... if i could say how proud i am i probably wouldn't be writing.
Seeing you i know that somethings have changed... youre not the kind of person to say your feelings. youre not the kind of guy to say if youre hurting or if something is wrong. All my friends they look at you and they tell me that you are exactly the same... they don't think that you've changed a bit. but they don't know you as well as i know YOU. i can see the pain in your eyes, maybe from the things you've seen. but i'm not there anymore. i am not there for you to vent to, for you to say and tell everything to... and i'm sorry. i want to hear your stories and your struggles... i want to be the person that you can tell everything to, the way i use to be... because i know you better than anyone of my friends... i can tell by the tone in your voice if you're okay, or if something is bothering you...
and as for us... i told Isa... i am not the same girl you left 6 months ago... i'm not even the same girl you left 1 year ago... you aren't the same guy... we both have experienced to much to go back to the old us...
I'm so proud of you... i'm so proud to say that my best friend went to iraq and conquered it. i'm so proud to say that you came back safe and you came back being the same dork that i love...
Don't be a stranger, don't be afraid of the dreams you put on hold because they are there in your reach. i'm glad you are going back to school and you are still trying to do what you want to do... take good care of yourself ... I love you... and i will always be here